Tuesday, August 4, 2015

WELCOME TO WHAT POVERTY LOOKS LIKE.

 THIS IS ALL THE FOOD I HAVE IN THE WORLD AND ALL I WILL HAVE SHORT OF A MIRACLE EXCEPT I DON'T BELIEVE IN MIRACLES ANYMORE. PEOPLE SUCK AND THE SYSTEM SUCKS. THAT I BELIEVE. I CAN GET BEHIND THAT BECAUSE I KNOW IT AS FACT. WITH PEOPLE IT'S AT LEAST 75%-90% TRUE. THE SYSTEM? 100% TRUTH. 
I HOPE NO ONE READING THIS EVER HAS TO KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE. IF YOU STOP AND TRULY CONTEMPLATE THIS REALITY YOU WOULD FIND THAT IT COMES WITH A PLETHORA OF OTHER ISSUES AS WELL, LIKE ANXIETY ATTACKS, HORRIBLE HEALTH REACTIONS TO SO MUCH SHIT AND SO LITTLE NUTRITION (LIKE SKIN ISSUES AND INTESTINAL ISSUES, MENTAL ISSUES AND PAIN TO START. OH AND THE LOVELY FALLING OUT OF ONES HAIR. THAT'S SUPER FUN.) NO ONE CHOOSES THIS LONG-TERM. I CAN ATTEST TO THE FACT THAT IT IS MUCH EASIER TO DO IT IN YOUR TEENS AND TWENTIES VS. DOING IN NEARING YOUR 50'S. IN MY EARLY 20'S I COULD LIVE OFF A DONUT AND WATER. I KNOW 'CAUSE I DID IT. I WAS HUNGRY BUT I FUNCTIONED WELL CONSIDERING AND I COULD STILL CARRY EVERYTHING I OWNED ON MY BACK AND WALK THROUGH MANY CITIES A DAY. IT ISN'T LIKE THAT ANYMORE. IT HURTS. A LOT. AND I NEVER ONCE TRULY CONTEMPLATED DYING WHEN I WAS YOUNG, BUT IT IS A 24/7 THOUGHT NOW BECAUSE I CAN NOT FATHOM THE DAY THIS IS ALL GONE. DO I EAT DIRT TO SURVIVE? WHAT ARE MY OPTIONS? I SPEND TONS OF TIME ASKING MYSELF THIS QUESTION AND THEN I HAVE AN ANXIETY ATTACK AND I TRY TO SLEEP BECAUSE THERE ARE NO ANSWERS AND PEOPLE DON'T MUCH CARE. THAT WILL ALWAYS BE THE SECOND HARDEST THING TO ACCEPT. THE FIRST IS LEAVING MY KIDS. THE SECOND IS JUST HOW HORRIBLY PEOPLE SUCK. 



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