Tuesday, March 1, 2016

THE CRIBS - "Be Safe"


THE CRIBS - "Be Safe"

One of those fucking awful black days
When nothing is pleasing and everything that happens
Is an excuse for anger
An outlet for emotions stockpiled, an arsenal, an armour

These are the days when I hate the world
Hate the rich, hate the happy
Hate the complacent, the TV watchers
Beer drinkers, the satisfied ones

Because I know I can be all of those little hateful things
And then I hate myself for realizing that
There's no preventative, directive or safe approach for living
We each know our own fate

We know from our youth how to be treated
How we'll be received, how we shall end
These things don't change

You can change your clothes
Change your hairstyle, your friends, cities, continents
But sooner or later your own self will always catch up
Always it waits in the wings

Ideas swirl but don't stick
They appear but then run off like rain on the windshield

One of those rainy day car rides, my head implodes
The atmosphere in this car, a mirror of my skull
Wet, damp, windows dripping and misted with cold
Walls of grey, nothing good on the radio, not a thought in my head

I know a place we can go where you'll fall in love so hard that
You'll wish you were dead

Let's take life and slow it down incredibly slow
Frame by frame
With two minutes that take ten years to live out
Yeah, let's do that

Telephone poles like praying mantis against the sky
Metal arms outstretched
So much land travelled, so little sense made of it
It doesn't mean a thing, all this land laid out behind us

I'd like to take off into these woods and get good and lost for a while
I'm disgusted with petty concerns
Parking tickets, breakfast specials
Does someone just have to carry this weight?

Abstract typography, methane covenant
Linear gospel, Nashville sales lady, stocky emissary
Torturous lice, mad Elizabeth
Chemotherapy bullshit

I know a place we can go where you'll fall in love so hard that
You'll wish you were dead

The light within you shines like a diamond mine
Like an unarmed walrus, like a dead man face down on the highway
Like a snake eating its own tail
A steam turbine, frog pond

Two full closets burst open in disarray, soap bubbles in the sun
Hospital death bed, red convertible, shopping list, blowjob
Deaths head, devils dancing, bleached white buildings, memory
Movements, the movie unpeeling, unreeling, about to begin

I know a place we can go where you'll fall in love so hard that
You'll wish you were dead

I've seen your hallway, you're a darn call away
I've hear your stairs creak, I can fix my mind on your yes
And your no, I'll film your face today in the sparkling canals
All red, yellow, blue, green brilliance and silver Dutch reflection

Racing thoughts, racing thoughts, all too real
You're moving so fast now, I can't hold your image
This image I have of your face by the window
Me standing beside you, arm on your shoulder
A catalogue of images, flashing glimpses, then gone again

I'm tethered to this post you've sunk in me
And every clear afternoon now I'll think of you, up in the air
Twisting your heel, your knees up around me, my face in your hair
You scream so well, your smile so loud, it still rings in my ears

I know a place we can go where you'll fall in love so hard that
You'll wish you were dead

Inhibition, distant, tired of longing
Clean my teeth, stay the course
Hold the wheel, steer on to freedom
Open all the boxes, open all the boxes
Open all the boxes, open all the boxes

Times Square midday, newspaper buildings, news headlines going around
You watch as they go and hope for some good ones
Those tree shadows in the park they're all whispering, chasing leaves

Around six PM, shadows across the cobblestones
Girl in front of bathroom mirror
As she slowly and carefully and paints her face green, mask-like
Like Matisse, "Portrait with Green Stripe"

Long shot through apartment window
A monologue on top but no girl in shot

The light within me shines like a diamond mine
Like an unarmed walrus, like a dead man face down on the highway
Like a snake eating its own tail
A steam turbine, frog pond

Two full closets burst open in disarray, soap bubbles in the sun
Hospital death bed, red convertible, shopping list, blowjob
Deaths head, devils dancing, bleached white buildings, memory
Movements, the movie unreeling, about to begin

That was great by me
Yeah? Mine were alright. Wasn't my best one but who cares?
That's the spirit

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Deflecting Bullshit Like a Boss!! Wonder Woman Reigns!

Deflecting Bullshit Like a Boss!! 


This is (literally, not figuratively) my mental picture when I am with my Mom or anyone I know who is too scared to speak the truth, or admit being human, therefore flawed or responsible for anything,  etc... I am mentally imagining this gif and I hear the Star Wars laser beam fighting sound... lol! 
Pew. 
Pew pew pew. 
Pew. 
Welcome to my mind. Sometimes it is truly entertaining, other times it's a deep ugly dark abyss of 'just give up.' Everything in between is monotonous crap. Of course if you read the shit I vomit here than you know that already. XOXO

Sunday, February 7, 2016

How I Got Fucked Up and Why I Can't Get Unfucked Up

Most people only come across one person like this but for a few of us unlucky Empaths and/or INFJ's we find ourselves surrounded by them. I was born into this and almost 49 years later and I still can't escape no matter how introverted and isolated I become, It will be the death of me trying to find peace. Literally. Nobody better question why because I have laid this out clearly. Maybe someone else can be saved though. So, if you are on the shit end of any kind of relationship like this RUN. NOW. If you are the asshole dishing this shit out then I say 'go get your damage repaired.' Grow a spine and face your shit rather than taking it out on the people around you. They deserve better. You will never find anything real or good while you spend all your time in denial. Everyone is flawed so trying to be right or superior to everyone is a fucking delusion.

Gaslighting as a Manipulation Tactic: What It Is, Who Does It, And Why
By Dr George Simon, PhD
http://counsellingresource.com/features/2011/11/08/gaslighting/
Gaslighting is a sophisticated manipulation tactic which certain types of personalities use to create doubt in the minds of others. Here’s how it works and what to watch out for.

In a stage play and suspense thriller from the 1930s entitled “Gas Light,” a conniving husband tries to make the wife he wishes to get rid of think she is losing her mind by making subtle changes in her environment, including slowly and steadily dimming the flame on a gas lamp. In recent years, the term “gaslighting” has come to be applied to attempts by certain kinds of personalities, especially psychopaths — who are among the personalities most adept at sophisticated tactics of manipulation — to create so much doubt in the minds of their targets of exploitation that the victim no longer trusts their own judgment about things and buys into the assertions of the manipulator, thus coming under their power and control.

Effective gaslighting can be accomplished in several different ways. Sometimes, a person can assert something with such an apparent intensity of conviction that the other person begins to doubt their own perspective. Other times, vigorous and unwavering denial coupled with a display of righteous indignation can accomplish the same task. Bringing up historical facts that seem largely accurate but contain minute, hard-to-prove distortions and using them to “prove” the correctness of one’s position is another method. Gaslighting is particularly effective when coupled with other tactics such as shaming and guilting. Anything that aids in getting another person to doubt their judgment and back down will work.

Gaslighting is just one of the many weapons in the arsenal of personalities hell-bent on having their way, even if it means doing so by subtle and covert means of conning others. One of the most important points I make in all my articles, books, and other writings about the narcissistic and most especially, the aggressive personalities, is that they will do whatever it takes to secure and maintain a position of advantage over others. And some of the most effective means at their disposal are tactics that conceal their malevolent intent while simultaneously prompting their “target” to accede to their desires. I outline the most common ones covertly aggressive folks use to manipulate others in my book In Sheep’s Clothing [Amazon-US | Amazon-UK]. But it would be virtually impossible to fully list all of the various tactics expert manipulators use.

Deception is often the key ingredient in manipulation. Deception can be accomplished by outright denial, distortion of key aspects of events, and a variety of other methods, especially the more sophisticated lying techniques. And, as I have mentioned in a prior post (see “Lying: The Ultimate Manipulation Tactic”), a really accomplished liar can deceive another person by merely reciting a litany of absolutely true things — while deliberately and cleverly leaving out one or two crucial elements that would change the entire character of what they’re trying to make you believe. But a common element among all the tactics manipulators use is that they cause the person being targeted to doubt their gut instincts about what’s going on. Their gut tells them they’re under attack or that someone is trying to get the better of them, and they intuitively go on the defensive. But because they often can’t find any clear, direct, objective evidence that the other person is merely trying to disadvantage them, they start doubting and questioning themselves. This is the real secret of effective manipulation. If the “target” were solidly convinced they were in the process of being done in, they’d more likely put up more resistance instead of capitulating. Manipulators know this. They win by getting the other person to back down or give in.

Gaslighting has come to some prominence lately because several authors have highlighted it as one of the more crafty tactics psychopaths use to disadvantage their victims. But many character-disturbed individuals, most especially the aggressive personalities, are prone to using numerous tactics, including covert techniques, to get the better of their targets. Their goal is always to win or secure whatever it is they want. And they’ll do whatever they have to do to get it. Sometimes the most effective way to do that is to avoid red-flagging their intentions but rather get the other person to unwittingly but voluntarily surrender. Instill shame, instill guilt, instill fear, or instill great doubt, and the other person will likely back off the stance they really wanted to take.

I have written a series of articles on the manipulation tactics of covertly-aggressive and other disturbed personalities (see my Series on Manipulation Tactics). In that series, many of the most common manipulation tactics are revealed and discussed. Regretfully, I didn’t originally include a post on “gaslighting”. Hopefully, this post will serve to help remedy that omission.

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Damageplan (Fuck you)

This songs the shit 'cause I could sing it or have it sung to me! Fuck yeah. Look at the asshole look in the mirror. Look at your pain and look at everyone else's. Mine isn't worth more than yours and yours isn't worth more than mine so fuck you! (Doin' a little jig here if you can imagine) Be fucking humble you fucks.








Fuck you I'm through

I want nothing more from you

My sanity is wearing thin

Irate, I hate

You determined your own fate

Now everything is caving in



Fuck your power trip and

Fuck your attitude and

Fuck your bloated ego too

Fuck your history

Your tragedy, your misery

But most of all fuck you



Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you



Fuck this, all of this

Bitch and moan and bleed and piss

Seconds away from goin' down

Go ahead and push me

Your fakery, your butchery

Is nothing compared to my hate for you



Fuck your apathy and

Fuck your empathy and

Fuck your nihilism too

Fuck your bitter pills

Take 'em all, you never will

But most of all fuck you

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Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you



Nothing changes, nothing fazes, nothing stays the same

Nothing changes, nothing fazes, nothing stays the same



You consulate, just a touch

Let myself be considered for themselves

Let's sit up

Hear that sound

It's not time to hang out





The summer eclipse doesen't exist

Don't watch it and hate the world



Fuck your power trip and

Fuck your attitude and

Fuck your bloated ego too

Fuck your history

Your tragedy, your misery

But most of all, motherfucker fuck you



Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

Read more at http://www.songlyrics.com/damageplan/fuck-you-lyrics/#ZU099TdqZS3cHblS.99

Five Finger Death Punch - Question Everything (Audio)







Five Finger Death Punch - Jekyll And Hyde



"I just feel like breaking shit."



Mutilation is the Most Sincere Form of Flattery - Marilyn Manson w/lyrics

FUCK is today's theme word.  EVERYTHING BEFORE AND AFTER IT ARE IRRELEVANT, OR AT LEAST LESS IMPORTANT. I have far too much pain and rage to hold in anymore, so FUCK is my outlet today. Fuck everything, fuck everyone, fuck the past, the present, the black hole of the future.... fuck it all.           

  

Slipknot - Custer (Audio)

RISE

Half alive and stark-raving free and maligned for encroaching on the purpose of this commercial-free interruption… 
Due to the prolific nature of this statement, listener aggression is advised.

It’s strange; whenever I see a gun, I think about just how petty you are
And it blows my fucking mind- it blows my fucking mind
These days, I never seem to get enough. I’m tired of this shit- I want to go home
Don’t waste my fucking time- don’t waste my fucking time
Because anything exceptional gets crushed by common people
With jealousy and ignorance and all their common evils
This planet isn’t special- collections made of clay
I’m waiting for the punishment I know is on my way

Pearl Jam- Blood (with Lyrics)

Buckcherry - Say Fuck It

Buckcherry Somebody Fucked With Me

Korn - 'Y'all Want A Single' (Official Video Uncensored)

Fuck It Up (Did You Ever Get The Feeling?)

Pigface- The Horse You Rode In On

Doomriders-Fuck this shit