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A perfect storm is a confluence of events that drastically aggravates a situation.
I CAN HANDLE THE PAIN BUT IT IS THE HOPE THAT KILLS ME...As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.comBlogger491125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-60224412627060774382023-04-26T11:06:00.001-07:002023-04-26T11:06:51.613-07:00Trauma is Trauma: A Mental Health Talk with Kevin Smith | PEOPLE<iframe width="480" height="270" src="https://youtube.com/embed/JBvc7Ny4iUk" frameborder="0"></iframe>As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-30838620270822909572019-12-07T12:46:00.001-08:002019-12-07T12:46:19.962-08:00The Weepies - World Spins Madly On [Official Music Video]<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="344" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/L4sa2HoXpsE" width="459"></iframe><br /><br />
<div class="NFQFxe Hhmu2e viOShc LKPcQc mod" data-hveid="CAwQAg" data-md="16" data-ved="2ahUKEwiCicmjs6TmAhUvFjQIHTQUCkcQhygoADAAegQIDBAC" style="clear: none;"><div class="Ftghae iirjIb"><div class="SPZz6b"><div class="kno-ecr-pt PZPZlf gsmt EaHP9c" data-attrid="title" data-local-attribute="d3bn" data-ved="2ahUKEwiCicmjs6TmAhUvFjQIHTQUCkcQ3B0oADAAegQIDBAD"><span>World Spins Madly On</span></div><div class="wwUB2c PZPZlf" data-attrid="subtitle"><span data-ved="2ahUKEwiCicmjs6TmAhUvFjQIHTQUCkcQ2kooATAAegQIDBAE"><a data-ved="2ahUKEwiCicmjs6TmAhUvFjQIHTQUCkcQMTAAegQIDBAF" href="https://www.google.com/search?newwindow=1&client=firefox-b-1-d&sxsrf=ACYBGNSCv2oB_dPhW3XOwt9liUaJvaIxYg:1575751366369&q=The+Weepies&stick=H4sIAAAAAAAAAONgVuLSz9U3MCxKyjM2XsTKHZKRqhCemlqQmVoMAMmuLmMcAAAA&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiCicmjs6TmAhUvFjQIHTQUCkcQMTAAegQIDBAF">The Weepies</a></span></div></div></div></div><div class="NFQFxe siXlze yp1CPe mod" data-attrid="kc:/music/recording_cluster:lyrics" data-md="113" style="clear: none;"><div data-hveid="CAYQAA" data-ved="2ahUKEwiCicmjs6TmAhUvFjQIHTQUCkcQsEwwAXoECAYQAA"><div class="Oh5wg"><div class="M1CzJc PZPZlf MtKf9c" data-lyricid="Musixmatch7372272"><div><span>Woke up and wished that I was dead</span><br /><span>With an aching in my head</span><br /><span>I lay motionless in bed</span><br /><span>I thought of you and where you'd gone</span><br /><span>and let the world spin madly on</span></div><div><span>Everything that I said I'd do</span><br /><span>Like make the world brand new</span><br /><span>And take the time for you</span><br /><span>I just got lost and slept</span><br /><span>right through the dawn</span></div><div><span>And the world spins madly on</span><br /><span>I let the day go by</span><br /><span>I always say goodbye</span><br /><span>I watch the stars from my window sill</span></div></div><div class="M1CzJc PZPZlf"><div class="u7wWjf" data-mh="-1"><span>The whole world is moving</span><br /><span>and I'm standing still</span><br /><span>Woke up and wished that I was dead</span><br /><span>With an aching in my head</span><br /><span>I lay motionless in bed</span></div><div class="xpdxpnd" data-mh="87" data-mhc="1" style="max-height: 87px;"><span>The night is here and the day is gone</span><br /><span>And the world spins madly on</span><br /><span>I thought of you and where you'd gone</span><br /><span>And the world spins madly on x3</span></div></div></div><div class="j04ED" style="margin: 5px 16px;">Source: <a href="https://www.musixmatch.com/">Musixmatch</a></div><div class="xpdxpnd PZPZlf rvntgc V9Q9W Oh5wg" data-lyricid="Musixmatch7372272" data-mh="58" data-mhc="1" data-ved="2ahUKEwiCicmjs6TmAhUvFjQIHTQUCkcQycMBKAAwAXoECAYQAQ" style="max-height: 58px;"><div>Songwriters: Steven Tannen / DEBORAH R TALAN</div><div>World Spins Madly On lyrics © Deb Talan Music, Steve Tannen Music</div></div></div></div>As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-39463390162647165252019-01-21T10:05:00.001-08:002019-01-21T10:05:22.232-08:00[HD] Too Many Dicks (On the Dance Floor) - Flight of the Conchords<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/z3LuqU-9bx8" width="480"></iframe>As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-18815071936786490322018-06-21T10:42:00.001-07:002018-06-21T10:42:30.614-07:00Depeche Mode - The Sun And The Rainfall<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="344" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/FWRfpC8s6XU" width="459"></iframe>As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-8454476076815209252018-04-12T15:50:00.002-07:002018-04-12T15:52:34.253-07:00Quirky & Opinionated<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Based on your associations with the abstract, you tend to be a shy and <b>quiet person</b>, but you also have tendencies to be eccentric and full of energy. Regardless, you are a <b>deep, intellectual thinker</b> who loves <b>helping others</b> and believes firmly in a number of causes. You are a <b>diplomat</b> who is able to easily solve problems and quell conflicts.<b> You don't care for social norms and standards and tend to do things your own way. One of your pet peeves is when people try to constrain or limit you, since you crave freedom and independence. Sometimes you can appear cold or insensitive, but you have a deep and genuine concern for humanity</b> and once you let someone into your world, you are good at expressing your emotions. You have a talent for exploiting your creative imagination for business purposes and this will get you very far.</div>
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THIS MEANS I DON'T REALLY 'DO' IMMATURE OR STUPID HUMOR. I CAN'T HELP IT. IT BORES ME TO NO END AND I ALREADY DID MY MANY YEARS OF TORTURE WHILE BEING A MOM (KID HUMOR CAN BE PAINFUL, "PULL MY FINGER!"), A WIFE (IN-LAW HUMOR CAN BE PAINFUL AS WELL, THE SAME 5 TO 10 STUPID ONE LINERS OR PLAYS ON WORDS ETC. IT'S CRUEL), AND THE MATE OF A POTHEAD (STONED HUMOR IS THE WORST WHEN IT IS ALL THERE IS ANYMORE. NO MATTER HOW INTELLIGENT THE STONER IS THEY BECOME COMPLETE IDIOTS ONCE THEY ARE WASTED.). SO YEAH, <b>NO</b>. I CAN'T MUSTER ANYTHING UP TO PLAY THAT ANYMORE AND I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO BECAUSE PEOPLE SHOULD WANT A GENUINE REACTION NOT '<b>JUST ANY</b> REACTION' BE IT FAKE OR OTHERWISE. WHAT IS THE POINT OF ME GIVING ANYONE A FAKE RESPONSE EXCEPT TO NURSE THEIR EGO? <b>NO</b>. ASK YOURSELF WHY YOU DO THIS WHEN YOU KNOW IT WILL NOT GO THE WAY YOU DEMAND IT TO GO. WHY YOU KEEP FORCING THE SAME SCENARIOS. WHY YOU NEED THIS ATTENTION RATHER THAN GOING WITHIN AND REPAIRING WHATEVER DAMAGE YOU HAVE THAT INSISTS THAT OTHERS RESPOND TO YOU, NOT HONESTLY, BUT RATHER THE WAY YOU DEMAND/EXPECT? WHY DOES THIS CREATE SO MUCH ANIMOSITY WITHIN YOU? THE ANSWER ISN'T IN MY REACTION OR LACK THEREOF BUT IN YOUR NEED TO REPEAT THE BEHAVIOR THEN LASH OUT.... </div>
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ALSO, THE MORE A PERSON PROTESTS SOMETHING <b>NO ONE HAS QUESTIONED</b>, THE LESS CONVINCING THAT PROTEST WILL BE. IF YOU EQUATE BASIC COURTESY AND BASIC CONSIDERATION TO BEING CALLED PETTY THEN YOU HAVE A SERIOUS ISSUE THAT YOU NEED TO DEAL WITH. YOU NEED TO FIGURE OUT WHY YOU ARE SEEING AND HEARING SOMETHING NOT THERE. IF SOMEONE HAS BLATANTLY PUT YOU INTO QUESTION THEN THERE IS REASON TO BE DEFENSIVE, BUT BASIC COMMON COURTESIES ARE SHOWING AN APPRECIATION NOT A PERSONAL ATTACK. BEING QUIET, NOT TAKING EVERYTHING OFFERED, NOT WANTING TO BE NIT PICKED TO DEATH BECAUSE IT MAKES A PERSON WANT TO KNOCK YOU OUT, ASKING FOR SPECIFICS RATHER THAN THE VAGUE SO THAT A PERSON CAN MAKE SOUND DECISIONS AND CHOICES THAT WON'T CAUSE MORE CRAP.... <b><i>JESUS FUCK</i></b>. IF A PERSON COULD JUST GET CLEAR CONCISE ANSWERS AND BE HEARD <i>AND REMEMBERED </i>(WHEN THEY REPEATEDLY GO OUT OF THEIR WAY TO GIVE YOU SPECIFICS AND CLEAR ANSWERS TO NO AVAIL) THEN LIFE COULD TRULY BE WORTH LIVING, BUT NOPE. NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES ONE ASKS, THE ANSWERS ARE ALWAYS EITHER VAGUE OR NON-EXISTENT (AVOIDED BY ATTACKS AND THE TWISTING OF WORDS TO DETOUR THE ANSWER). MORE 'FIGHTS' ARE BASED ON THIS ISSUE THAN ANY OTHER. CONSTANT DEFLECTING. </div>
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DEFLECTING... THE NEVER FUCKING ENDING DEFLECTING BY THE PEOPLE REFUSING TO STOP AND JUST LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND ALLOW THEMSELVES TO SEE AND BE. THIS NEED TO REFUSE TO ADMIT FLAWS BECAUSE THEN YOU MUST ADDRESS THEM, (BUT YOU MUST ANYWAY BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE SEE'S THEM WHILE YOU PRETEND THEY AREN'T THERE AND AS LONG AS YOU GUYS DO THAT YOU WILL NEVER FIND ANY SELF LOVE).<b> YOU WON'T EVER FEEL GOOD ABOUT THE PERSON YOU ARE</b>, YOU WILL ALWAYS TRY TO DEFEND YOURSELF WHEN NO ONE BUT YOU HAS ACCUSED. YOU WILL GET ANGRY AT THE PEOPLE WHO ACCEPT THEMSELVES. YOU WILL WASTE AN ENORMOUS AMOUNT OF ENERGY ON AVOIDING YOURSELF AND ALIENATING OTHERS. IT'S SUCH A WASTE. WE WILL NEVER GET TIME BACK EITHER. IT'S GONE. WASTED. AND THE PEOPLE YOU PUSH AND HURT WILL NEVER FULLY HEAL FROM THE PAINS YOU INFLICT IN YOUR AVOIDANCE. </div>
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I'M A FUCKING SCREEN ALREADY, SO A FEW MORE FUCKING HOLES WON'T DO MUCH, SO IT'S REALLY A WASTE OF TIME TO CONTINUE TO TRY, BUT OTHERS ARE USUALLY LESS DAMAGED. OTHERS WILL FEEL IT THE WAY I FELT IT WHEN I WAS NOT A PLETHORA OF HOLES AND OPEN WOUNDS. I CAN ATTEST TO HOW CRUEL THAT IS AND ALSO TO HOW YOU REALLY DON'T WANT TO BE '<b>THAT PERSON</b>' TO SOMEONE IF YOU CAN AVOID IT. SO AVOID IT. GO GET THERAPY OR READ SOME BOOKS OR TAKE A FEW PSYCH AND PHILOSOPHY COURSES OR DO SOMETHING, ANYTHING POSITIVE TO STOP THE CYCLE THAT IS EATING UP YOUR LIVES.</div>
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AND TRY TO REMEMBER THAT THE PEOPLE YOU HAVE SO MUCH ANIMOSITY FOR THAT HAVE ALREADY DONE THIS INTERNAL WORK WERE ONCE STANDING RIGHT WHERE YOU STAND NOW. THEY'VE BEEN THERE FELT THAT. THE DIFFERENCE IS THE COURAGE TO FACE IT, ACCEPT IT, AND DEAL WITH IT IN A HEALTHY MANNER THAT PROPELS YOU FORWARD, NOT BACKWARDS OR KEEPING YOU TRAPPED IN LIMBO. LIMBO IS HELL. I THINK I AM IN LIMBO UNTIL I MANAGE TO HELP SOMEONE ELSE SEE AND MOVE FORWARD. ITS THE ONLY ANSWER I HAVE TO WHY I KEEP ENCOUNTERING THE SAME PERSON IN A DIFFERENT SHELL. EVERY AGE, GENDER, BACKGROUND... SAME PERSON. SAME DAMAGE. SAME REFUSAL. IT'S A NIGHTMARE I CAN'T ESCAPE. I'VE TRIED. I GIVE UP THOUGH. I ACCEPT THAT THIS WILL NOT END WELL FOR ME. I WILL NOT EVER MANAGE TO REACH ANY ONE OF THESE PEOPLE. MY FAILURE TO HELP WILL BE MY LIFE FAILURE AND I WILL EITHER CONTINUE THIS HELLISH LIMBO OR I WILL END IT THE ONLY WAY I KNOW HOW. SAD FACT. DEPRESSING FACT. IS THIS HOW DOCTORS FEEL WHEN THEIR PATIENT DIES? "I TRIED SO HARD, AND FOR WHAT? THIS?" AFTER A WHILE I CAN SEE HOW MANY DOCTORS JUST GIVE UP ON BEING CONNECTED TO THEIR PATIENTS ANYMORE. THEN AGAIN (THIS IS THE INFJ SPEAKING) I CAN ALSO SEE ALL THE PEOPLE HELPED AND SAVED. ALL THE IN-BETWEENS. SIGH. LIFE AND DEATH SHOULD BE A LOT MORE CUT AND DRY DAMN IT. </div>
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THE CRIBS - "Be Safe"<br />
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One of those fucking awful black days<br />
When nothing is pleasing and everything that happens<br />
Is an excuse for anger<br />
An outlet for emotions stockpiled, an arsenal, an armour<br />
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These are the days when I hate the world<br />
Hate the rich, hate the happy<br />
Hate the complacent, the TV watchers<br />
Beer drinkers, the satisfied ones<br />
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Because I know I can be all of those little hateful things<br />
And then I hate myself for realizing that<br />
There's no preventative, directive or safe approach for living<br />
We each know our own fate<br />
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We know from our youth how to be treated<br />
How we'll be received, how we shall end<br />
These things don't change<br />
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<b>You can change your clothes</b><br />
<b>Change your hairstyle, your friends, cities, continents</b><br />
<b>But sooner or later your own self will always catch up</b><br />
<b>Always it waits in the wings</b><br />
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Ideas swirl but don't stick<br />
They appear but then run off like rain on the windshield<br />
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One of those rainy day car rides, my head implodes<br />
The atmosphere in this car, a mirror of my skull<br />
Wet, damp, windows dripping and misted with cold<br />
Walls of grey, nothing good on the radio, not a thought in my head<br />
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I know a place we can go where you'll fall in love so hard that<br />
You'll wish you were dead<br />
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Let's take life and slow it down incredibly slow<br />
Frame by frame<br />
With two minutes that take ten years to live out<br />
Yeah, let's do that<br />
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Telephone poles like praying mantis against the sky<br />
Metal arms outstretched<br />
So much land travelled, so little sense made of it<br />
It doesn't mean a thing, all this land laid out behind us<br />
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I'd like to take off into these woods and get good and lost for a while<br />
I'm disgusted with petty concerns<br />
Parking tickets, breakfast specials<br />
Does someone just have to carry this weight?<br />
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Abstract typography, methane covenant<br />
Linear gospel, Nashville sales lady, stocky emissary<br />
Torturous lice, mad Elizabeth<br />
Chemotherapy bullshit<br />
<br />
I know a place we can go where you'll fall in love so hard that<br />
You'll wish you were dead<br />
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The light within you shines like a diamond mine<br />
Like an unarmed walrus, like a dead man face down on the highway<br />
Like a snake eating its own tail<br />
A steam turbine, frog pond<br />
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Two full closets burst open in disarray, soap bubbles in the sun<br />
Hospital death bed, red convertible, shopping list, blowjob<br />
Deaths head, devils dancing, bleached white buildings, memory<br />
Movements, the movie unpeeling, unreeling, about to begin<br />
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I know a place we can go where you'll fall in love so hard that<br />
You'll wish you were dead<br />
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I've seen your hallway, you're a darn call away<br />
I've hear your stairs creak, I can fix my mind on your yes<br />
And your no, I'll film your face today in the sparkling canals<br />
All red, yellow, blue, green brilliance and silver Dutch reflection<br />
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Racing thoughts, racing thoughts, all too real<br />
You're moving so fast now, I can't hold your image<br />
This image I have of your face by the window<br />
Me standing beside you, arm on your shoulder<br />
A catalogue of images, flashing glimpses, then gone again<br />
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I'm tethered to this post you've sunk in me<br />
And every clear afternoon now I'll think of you, up in the air<br />
Twisting your heel, your knees up around me, my face in your hair<br />
You scream so well, your smile so loud, it still rings in my ears<br />
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I know a place we can go where you'll fall in love so hard that<br />
You'll wish you were dead<br />
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Inhibition, distant, tired of longing<br />
Clean my teeth, stay the course<br />
Hold the wheel, steer on to freedom<br />
Open all the boxes, open all the boxes<br />
Open all the boxes, open all the boxes<br />
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Times Square midday, newspaper buildings, news headlines going around<br />
You watch as they go and hope for some good ones<br />
Those tree shadows in the park they're all whispering, chasing leaves<br />
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Around six PM, shadows across the cobblestones<br />
Girl in front of bathroom mirror<br />
As she slowly and carefully and paints her face green, mask-like<br />
Like Matisse, "Portrait with Green Stripe"<br />
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Long shot through apartment window<br />
A monologue on top but no girl in shot<br />
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The light within me shines like a diamond mine<br />
Like an unarmed walrus, like a dead man face down on the highway<br />
Like a snake eating its own tail<br />
A steam turbine, frog pond<br />
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Two full closets burst open in disarray, soap bubbles in the sun<br />
Hospital death bed, red convertible, shopping list, blowjob<br />
Deaths head, devils dancing, bleached white buildings, memory<br />
Movements, the movie unreeling, about to begin<br />
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That was great by me<br />
Yeah? Mine were alright. Wasn't my best one but who cares?<br />
That's the spirit<br />
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As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-9489161958190286692016-02-14T16:04:00.001-08:002016-02-14T16:04:01.088-08:00How To Be An Action Hero: The Philosophy of Bruce Lee | Shannon Lee | TE...<a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOKKUSwEaxg" target="_blank">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOKKUSwEaxg</a><br /><br />
How To Be An Action Hero: The Philosophy of Bruce Lee | Shannon Lee | TE...As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-13522729556902308152016-02-11T12:40:00.000-08:002016-02-11T12:43:42.323-08:00Deflecting Bullshit Like a Boss!! Wonder Woman Reigns! <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-size: large;">This is (literally, not figuratively) my mental picture when I am with my Mom or anyone I know who is too scared to speak the truth, or admit being human, therefore flawed or responsible for anything, etc... I am mentally imagining this gif and I hear the Star Wars laser beam fighting sound... lol! </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Pew. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Pew pew pew. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Pew. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Welcome to my mind. Sometimes it is truly entertaining, other times it's a deep ugly dark abyss of 'just give up.' Everything in between is monotonous crap. Of course if you read the shit I vomit here than you know that already. XOXO</span><br />
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As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-73736321051765618032016-02-07T16:34:00.000-08:002016-02-07T16:34:01.388-08:00How I Got Fucked Up and Why I Can't Get Unfucked Up<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Most people only come across one person like this but for a few of us unlucky Empaths and/or INFJ's we find ourselves surrounded by them. I was born into this and almost 49 years later and I still can't escape no matter how introverted and isolated I become, It will be the death of me trying to find peace. Literally. Nobody better question why because I have laid this out clearly. Maybe someone else can be saved though. So, if you are on the shit end of any kind of relationship like this RUN. NOW. If you are the asshole dishing this shit out then I say 'go get your damage repaired.' Grow a spine and face your shit rather than taking it out on the people around you. They deserve better. You will never find anything real or good while you spend all your time in denial. Everyone is flawed so trying to be right or superior to everyone is a fucking delusion.<br />
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Gaslighting as a Manipulation Tactic: What It Is, Who Does It, And Why<br />
By Dr George Simon, PhD<br />
http://counsellingresource.com/features/2011/11/08/gaslighting/<br />
Gaslighting is a sophisticated manipulation tactic which certain types of personalities use to create doubt in the minds of others. Here’s how it works and what to watch out for.<br />
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In a stage play and suspense thriller from the 1930s entitled “Gas Light,” a conniving husband tries to make the wife he wishes to get rid of think she is losing her mind by making subtle changes in her environment, including slowly and steadily dimming the flame on a gas lamp. In recent years, the term “gaslighting” has come to be applied to attempts by certain kinds of personalities, especially psychopaths — who are among the personalities most adept at sophisticated tactics of manipulation — to create so much doubt in the minds of their targets of exploitation that the victim no longer trusts their own judgment about things and buys into the assertions of the manipulator, thus coming under their power and control.<br />
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Effective gaslighting can be accomplished in several different ways. Sometimes, a person can assert something with such an apparent intensity of conviction that the other person begins to doubt their own perspective. Other times, vigorous and unwavering denial coupled with a display of righteous indignation can accomplish the same task. Bringing up historical facts that seem largely accurate but contain minute, hard-to-prove distortions and using them to “prove” the correctness of one’s position is another method. Gaslighting is particularly effective when coupled with other tactics such as shaming and guilting. Anything that aids in getting another person to doubt their judgment and back down will work.<br />
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Gaslighting is just one of the many weapons in the arsenal of personalities hell-bent on having their way, even if it means doing so by subtle and covert means of conning others. One of the most important points I make in all my articles, books, and other writings about the narcissistic and most especially, the aggressive personalities, is that they will do whatever it takes to secure and maintain a position of advantage over others. And some of the most effective means at their disposal are tactics that conceal their malevolent intent while simultaneously prompting their “target” to accede to their desires. I outline the most common ones covertly aggressive folks use to manipulate others in my book In Sheep’s Clothing [Amazon-US | Amazon-UK]. But it would be virtually impossible to fully list all of the various tactics expert manipulators use.<br />
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Deception is often the key ingredient in manipulation. Deception can be accomplished by outright denial, distortion of key aspects of events, and a variety of other methods, especially the more sophisticated lying techniques. And, as I have mentioned in a prior post (see “Lying: The Ultimate Manipulation Tactic”), a really accomplished liar can deceive another person by merely reciting a litany of absolutely true things — while deliberately and cleverly leaving out one or two crucial elements that would change the entire character of what they’re trying to make you believe. But a common element among all the tactics manipulators use is that they cause the person being targeted to doubt their gut instincts about what’s going on. Their gut tells them they’re under attack or that someone is trying to get the better of them, and they intuitively go on the defensive. But because they often can’t find any clear, direct, objective evidence that the other person is merely trying to disadvantage them, they start doubting and questioning themselves. This is the real secret of effective manipulation. If the “target” were solidly convinced they were in the process of being done in, they’d more likely put up more resistance instead of capitulating. Manipulators know this. They win by getting the other person to back down or give in.<br />
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Gaslighting has come to some prominence lately because several authors have highlighted it as one of the more crafty tactics psychopaths use to disadvantage their victims. But many character-disturbed individuals, most especially the aggressive personalities, are prone to using numerous tactics, including covert techniques, to get the better of their targets. Their goal is always to win or secure whatever it is they want. And they’ll do whatever they have to do to get it. Sometimes the most effective way to do that is to avoid red-flagging their intentions but rather get the other person to unwittingly but voluntarily surrender. Instill shame, instill guilt, instill fear, or instill great doubt, and the other person will likely back off the stance they really wanted to take.<br />
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I have written a series of articles on the manipulation tactics of covertly-aggressive and other disturbed personalities (see my Series on Manipulation Tactics). In that series, many of the most common manipulation tactics are revealed and discussed. Regretfully, I didn’t originally include a post on “gaslighting”. Hopefully, this post will serve to help remedy that omission.</div>
As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-79832341012253130472016-01-26T15:58:00.001-08:002016-01-26T15:58:05.556-08:00CL - ‘HELLO BITCHES’ DANCE PERFORMANCE VIDEO<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/8o4Zj98FeX4" width="480"></iframe>As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-87698642206945027752016-01-13T13:33:00.001-08:002016-01-13T13:36:46.289-08:00Damageplan (Fuck you)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-size: large;">This songs the shit 'cause I could sing it or have it sung to me! Fuck yeah. Look at the asshole look in the mirror. Look at your pain and look at everyone else's. Mine isn't worth more than yours and yours isn't worth more than mine so fuck you! (Doin' a little jig here if you can imagine) Be fucking humble you fucks.</span><br />
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Fuck you I'm through<br />
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I want nothing more from you<br />
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My sanity is wearing thin<br />
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Irate, I hate<br />
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You determined your own fate<br />
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Now everything is caving in<br />
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Fuck your power trip and<br />
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Fuck your attitude and<br />
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Fuck your bloated ego too<br />
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Fuck your history<br />
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Your tragedy, your misery<br />
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But most of all fuck you<br />
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Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you<br />
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Fuck this, all of this<br />
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Bitch and moan and bleed and piss<br />
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Seconds away from goin' down<br />
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Go ahead and push me<br />
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Your fakery, your butchery<br />
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Is nothing compared to my hate for you<br />
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Fuck your apathy and<br />
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Fuck your empathy and<br />
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Fuck your nihilism too<br />
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Fuck your bitter pills<br />
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Take 'em all, you never will<br />
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But most of all fuck you<br />
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Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you<br />
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Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you<br />
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Nothing changes, nothing fazes, nothing stays the same<br />
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Nothing changes, nothing fazes, nothing stays the same<br />
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You consulate, just a touch<br />
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Let myself be considered for themselves<br />
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Let's sit up<br />
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Hear that sound<br />
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It's not time to hang out<br />
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The summer eclipse doesen't exist<br />
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Don't watch it and hate the world<br />
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Fuck your power trip and<br />
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Fuck your attitude and<br />
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Fuck your bloated ego too<br />
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Fuck your history<br />
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Your tragedy, your misery<br />
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But most of all, motherfucker fuck you<br />
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Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you<br />
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Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you<br />
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Read more at http://www.songlyrics.com/damageplan/fuck-you-lyrics/#ZU099TdqZS3cHblS.99</div>
As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-60671730847315333542016-01-13T13:20:00.001-08:002016-01-13T13:20:51.714-08:00Five Finger Death Punch - Question Everything (Audio)<br /><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">"I just feel like breaking shit."</span><br /><br />
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<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/HCBPmxiVMKk" width="480"></iframe>As I Lay Bleedinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03562428077313560197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2655181409919650723.post-46187640212352122592016-01-13T12:59:00.001-08:002016-01-13T12:59:46.008-08:00Mutilation is the Most Sincere Form of Flattery - Marilyn Manson w/lyrics<b><span style="font-size: x-large;">FUCK is today's theme word.</span></b> <span style="font-size: x-large;">EVERYTHING BEFORE AND AFTER IT ARE IRRELEVANT, OR AT LEAST LESS IMPORTANT. I have far too much pain and rage to hold in anymore, so FUCK is my outlet today. Fuck everything, fuck everyone, fuck the past, the present, the black hole of the future.... fuck it all. </span> <br /><br />
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